Today was one of those days. Emotions ran high for Mama today. Not sure what it was about the day but they were high. Nevaeh has a lot of emotion and I am trying desperately to understand it more. She has a lot of...spirit...and I don't handle the spirit the way I need to, the way I want to, the way I should. I don't have the patience and pray nightly for patience for the next day, and most nights pray for forgiveness for not handling situations correctly.
My morning was filled with lots of screaming, frustration, and compromising. Lots of keeping her out of things and redirecting. So I decided to nap her because I couldn't go through the rest of the day this way. When she woke up, it was back to more screaming even before we left the bedroom. I was so frustrated I sent her to her dad and went to shower where I cried until I could cry no more. By the time I came out, she had calmed down and was playing delightfully with her dad. She was wonderful the rest of the night. :) My title of this post is Frustration to Tears, not because of these tears spent, but because of the tears when putting her to bed for the night. She laid by me and I gave her a light kiss on her cheek and said "I love you with all my heart." She said "I love you with all you heart." This is where the tear fell. We have said this to each other multiple times. Never has it affected me this way. No matter how frustrated I get during the day, I need this time at night to reconnect with my spirited girl. I love her with all my heart. And she loves me with all my heart too. ;)
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